I had to go into my first prenatal appointment on my own today…I was nervous as heck. I read a few articles online beforehand on how prenatal appointments are supposed to go. I started to get performance anxiety.
I sat in my hospital gown, naked & anxious, with hundreds of thoughts running through my head. What should I make for dinner? Maybe some tofu? Will they stick a probe inside me? Should I start shopping for larger pants? Was that a vending machine outside? I think I saw Cheetos? Did I take my prenatal vitamin today? Do I have a snack pack in my car?
10 minutes passed by, or it may have been an hour; time was moving so very slowly. Finally, Dr. Hardebeck entered the room with the sweetest smile and calmest eyes. She introduced herself, and I instantly felt at ease.
The lights went off, the monitor turned on, and Dr. Hardebeck got to work. She smeared a tiny smidge of gel around my pelvic area and began the ultrasound.
“Just relax,” she said. “I can feel you tensing up a bit. It’s a good thing you’re thin. It’ll make it easier to find the baby.” I nervously smiled. After a few moments of gliding along my pelvis, the transducer found what it was looking for.
“Oh yes! Here we are,” explained Dr. Hardebeck. A tiny, hollow pocket appeared on the screen. In one corner, a boba-shaped fetus was looking back at me, floating and bobbing around like a spaceman in space.
I wasn’t prepared for the shock. “That is soooo amazing!!!” That’s our Little Luna! I started to cry.
Dr. Hardebeck turned the sound on the monitor, and the heart beat sung through like pitter-pattering rain. I was beside myself. All I could say was “this is so amazing, this is so amazing, this is so amazing” and she calmly replied with “yes it is, yes it is, yes it is”.
Expected due date of Little Luna:
July 10, 2018
Watch out world!!!